The Hierophant – What is going against you
You are simply struggling to conform to others expectations of you and everybody has an opinion of what you should do.
Perhaps you are having a crisis of faith and are unsettled at a very spiritual level. Ask yourself who you really are. What is important to you? What makes you happy?
Seek out advice or wise counsel if you wish, but accepting who you really are and going after what you want instead of what others want for you is the most important.